Done Chasing Rainbows


Stim cycle 2 was a waste of time, money,  and energy.

My two embryos were abnormal.

We are done. I don’t know how I feel about this yet, but imagine ever negative emotion you’ve ever felt rolled up in one sucker punch and that’s hoer I’m feeling.

I’m hermitting myself off right because I hate everyone and everything.


2 thoughts on “Done Chasing Rainbows

  1. I don’t know if I’m someone you even want to hear from, but I have to tell you how sorry I am. I have tears in my eyes reading this. I don’t know how it feels, but I can picture myself where you are and I can imagine the pain. I hope for happiness for you with whatever comes next. xo

  2. I can’t tell you how sorry I am. This is just the worst. I don’t know if you’re at the anger stage but beating the crap out of my bed with a pillow made me feel better for about 5 minutes and wasn’t as destructive as taking a baseball bat to all my possessions, which was what I kept fantasizing about when I got similar news. Only you know if you’re completely done with this process, but if you’re not, I hope your doctor has mentioned donor eggs or embryos. It takes some mental gymnastics to get used to the idea, but it can be done. Whatever you decide to do, I hope the journey to peace of mind is as quick as possible. I know this feels like torture right now and I wish that wasn’t the case. Do whatever you have to do to get through the days.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s